I'm A Big Worrywart & I Blame Google & My Runaway Mind
June 3, 2012
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June 3, 2012
It’s Sunday 3:12pm and if you read my Facebook page regularly you’ll know that my son isn’t feeling well today.
Yesterday he had diarrhea all day, pretty loose & pretty often but besides that he was totally himself, happy as a lark. We tried to watch what he ate and forced him to drink a lot of water. He was fine. Went to bed at his normal bedtime and got up today happy.
Then this morning he threw up a little but other than that he seemed fine all morning. Drank some water, munched on a few cheerios. Then around 12:30pm or so he got a bit cranky/ ornery like he had a stomach ache and/or a headache and at 1pm he settled down for a nap.
And I’ve been a nervous nelly all morning and this little stomach bug is bugging me out a little.
Cuz 2 weeks ago at about this time he had his first seizure ever that sent us to the hospital for 3 days.
And tomorrow is 2 weeks that he’s on his anti-seizure med.
And so I’m watching him like a hawk and worrying.
It’s the curse of google. I’ve done a lot more googling of “seizures” and “epilepsy” than the wife.
WIFE: “His back feels fine. Stop worrying.”
MY INTERNAL THOUGHTS: “Why is he napping? He got really tired after the big seizures. Did he have one and I missed it?
“Did he just have a silent seizure? He just zoned out for a few seconds.”
“Is his new med causing the diarrhea & vomiting? Of course not. He’s been on it for 2 weeks and he’s been fine.”
“We’re supposed to go for blood work this week to check how the med is affecting his liver (among other things). Maybe the diarrhea & vomiting have to do with his liver? Should I google that?”
“Is he extra twitchy in his sleep during his nap? Is he having silent seizures in his sleep?”
Ugh I hate my runaway brain sometimes!! Then in my mind i start trying to talk myself off the ledge…talk some common sense into myself.
“My kid had seizures for literally one 24 hour period 2 weeks ago. He’s been fine ever since. He’s been GREAT ever since. He’s been AMAZING ever since.”
“The new med made him a little more tired & clumsy for the first week or so but even that was settling in.”
“So can’t my kid just get a stomach bug like any other kid? Isn’t that allowed?”
“and even if he is having silent seizures, so what? what are you gonna do? Are you gonna go to the ER for that? No your just gonna monitor it closely and maybe call or go to the doctor tomorrow. So stop freaking worrying!”
And now it’s 4:30pm. The king woke up from his nap around 3:45. Was totally fine and happy. Then puked again a lot. After he puked he was totally fine. Laughing and cuddly.
My son has a freaking stomach bug!! Simple as that!
Whew. Some days I hate the way my mind works.
I just said to the wife “what’s wrong with me? I dealt with the seizures and the ER and the 3 days in the hospital fine and I’m freaking out over a little poop & puke!”
I think ol’ Autism Daddy needs to go on some new meds myself. Maybe the stuff I’ve been on for almost 2 1/2 years is finally wearing off… 🙂
Written byFrank Campagna
I’m a 48 year old neurotypical dad with a 14 year old son with severe, non-verbal autism & epilepsy. I created this blog to rant about autism & epilepsy while celebrating my son who I affectionately call “the king” :-).